withering!!! but beautiful...

Thursday, December 19, 2013

Drowning into 'see'



An ocean of confusion swallows me whole,
Naked mind, body cold.

Screaming, swallowing, dying for breath.
The irony, I was praying for death.

Eyes blurry, the salts burn through.
Nostrils filled and the wind pipe too.

“Neck above the water”, I tell myself.
But tides pull and underwater I dwell.

Legs both cramped, abdomen feels absent.
I drown.

Pulled further down, something special I see.
I’m swimming underwater, I wonder, “How could it be?”.

Vision clear, legs un-cramped.
I see a creature prancing around.

How do you do that?, I ask in speech.
“How do you moonwalk with no ground beneath?”

It says - “Simple my love, you fail to see,
You’re underwater, you’re all you can be.”

I looked around and then I realise -
Evolution spaced out time.

The gills on my sides are proof to me.
This dreamland we’re in, we’re free to leave.

Knitting my socks underwater!!!

A few days later, I swim back to shore.
Merry men and ‘friends’, seemed like a bore.

The peril, the horror and the spectacle that followed.
Killed inside me, all the pain I had swallowed.

Counting my steps, I look back at the sea.
7, 8, 9…. 10… I can’t seem to leave.

As much as it killed, one part of me.
Drowning indeed, could the only way be.

To witness the beauty that with many others I’d fail to share…
A private paradise, the watery lair..


- PA

Monday, February 20, 2012

". . ."

'I am not me... I am whoever I'd like to be...'
- PA

Monday, July 4, 2011

and always wonder why

And all our worlds subside


With everything inside


And always wonder why (we carry on)


And always wonder why (we sing this song)


And always wonder why (we carry on)


And always wonder why (now you are gone)


We'll carry on


We'll sing this song


To carry on.


-the pineapple thief - 3000 days

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BUJzNuZ_wQ8&playnext=1&list=PL0BCD9F64791D069D

Monday, April 11, 2011

mother



a thing of beauty, a joy forever she said...

mother...

Thursday, April 7, 2011

"i want clear skin"


Among other things, this thought crossed my mind when i was trying to look nicer.

nah! wait... that's a lie... :) when i was trying to look 'hotter'... :(

what's the point of clear skin though?
it isn't going to make me a better person someday..it isn't going to fetch me wisdom or experience..
it wouldn't feed a needy, hungry child... it wouldn't help anyone else for any reason....
it cannot bring rains to a broken land, or fill the hour clock with some more sand..
it definitely wouldn't bring back anyone from the dead.. totally wouldn't let me take back what i've said..
it couldn't make a troubled soul smile... couldn't take me down the aisle...
it couldn't accompany a lonely soul... or shed light on a dirty hole...
it wouldn't cover a secret revealed... nor definitely grant me a desirable appeal...


all in all this is what i see... that a clear skin cannot make me feel...
but then again this feeling stirred... it hurt me bad when you looked at her...

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

oh no :(

heart broken about something... and i wish this time that it is something that cannot be repaired, for it shall keep me sane and make me stronger... i hope and pray with all my might for that...

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

meh!

Scenic view

A pleasant feel

I dig a grave

In search for thee...