". . ."

'I am not me... I am whoever I'd like to be...'

- PA

and always wonder why

And all our worlds subside

With everything inside

And always wonder why (we carry on)

And always wonder why (we sing this song)

And always wonder why (we carry on)

And always wonder why (now you are gone)

We'll carry on

We'll sing this song

To carry on.

-the pineapple thief - 3000 days

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BUJzNuZ_wQ8&playnext=1&list=PL0BCD9F64791D069D

mother

a thing of beauty, a joy forever she said...

mother...

"i want clear skin"

Among other things, this thought crossed my mind when i was trying to look nicer.

nah! wait... that's a lie... :) when i was trying to look 'hotter'... :(

what's the point of clear skin though?

it isn't going to make me a better person someday..it isn't going to fetch me wisdom or experience..

it wouldn't feed a needy, hungry child... it wouldn't help anyone else for any reason....

it cannot bring rains to a broken land, or fill the hour clock with some more sand..

it definitely wouldn't bring back anyone from the dead.. totally wouldn't let me take back what i've said..

it couldn't make a troubled soul smile... couldn't take me down the aisle...

it couldn't accompany a lonely soul... or shed light on a dirty hole...

it wouldn't cover a secret revealed... nor definitely grant me a desirable appeal...

all in all this is what i see... that a clear skin cannot make me feel...

but then again this feeling stirred... it hurt me bad when you looked at her...

oh no :(

heart broken about something... and i wish this time that it is something that cannot be repaired, for it shall keep me sane and make me stronger... i hope and pray with all my might for that...

meh!

Scenic view

A pleasant feel

I dig a grave

In search for thee...

3 weeks

So... i have completed 3 weeks on my own...

not too much accomplished but at least i know what i can and cannot do now...

it isn't easy though... loneliness gets to you...but then again, that's the reason why i did this... to get used to myself.. to be comfortable with myself... it's going good for a bit now... need to figure out certain other domestic requirements as soon as possible...