3 weeks

So... i have completed 3 weeks on my own...

not too much accomplished but at least i know what i can and cannot do now...

it isn't easy though... loneliness gets to you...but then again, that's the reason why i did this... to get used to myself.. to be comfortable with myself... it's going good for a bit now... need to figure out certain other domestic requirements as soon as possible...

i get hooked on to one song and let it loop for days...

present favortite: Bouncing off clouds by Tori Amos...

it's been the only song i've heard all day and expect it to stay for tomorrow as well...

reasons why it could be what it is - this whole 'trip'....

• mood the song sets is just right for me
• it reminds me of who i am when i've lost my way
• it reminds me of who i should be
• it lets me 'pause' the environment of my life... the fact that i listen to the same song over and over again, subconsciously makes me feel like i'm stuck in the same 4 minutes 8 seconds as the previous one... this way, i'm moving but not moving forward...

it gives me company... if i'm sad, i listen to a sad song.. if happy then a happy-happy song... else it's just very bleh!!! :(

if i'm sad and i play a happy song, i'd feel the i'm mocking my own feelings.. (>_<)

so right now... i'm bouncing off of clouds...

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fav part:

Make it easy

Make this easy

It's not as heavy as it seems

Wrapped in metal

Wrapped in ivy

Paint it in mint ice cream

- TA

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try breathing

Sitting here alone

It feels like everything’s so fake

‘love will keep us alive’ she’s singing

LOL!!!!

I’m running from love

I don’t see the point

I have something new now that bugs me

It pricks me at times

But I want it

Then again. I can’t have.

It’s what life is about..

Or maybe if you tried breathing and food!!! (>_<)

‘you were searching for a place to hide’ it seems… haha…

Flyte thoughts... Part 1

I’m riding through the traffic,

And I’m wondering. . .

"What if just because I think it will, that it wont happen?"

"What if… Go sees right through my thoughts and makes sure of an accident just when I feel I’m on a cushion???"

like seriously!!!

is this right or is this wrong

feeling a sense of warmth

surrounds me with a million songs

are we stuck in a storm

while i wait

tingly tingly

sweet and sour

confused but dazed

i am, but i dare!!!

move, it is i make

on the stage

music is playing, it is

you and i on the same page!!!

i'm deflowering on you

i'm excited constantly

shape shift and thought

i can't wait any longer!!!

(>.<)

its a freaky gory place you've gotten yourself into...

now you have to move... the music you must sway to...